Being bi poler, and being it on mostly the depressive side, it is a constant battle to stay balanced. I really am not balanced hardly ever. Its more like Im either on my way up, or on my way down. That golden balance point is rarely achieved for long. It is a very hard day for me today, and Im doing everything I can think of to get out of it. Reading a book that has something to do with what Im going through is one of those fixes.Today Im reading the Hormone Connection by Gale Maleskey and Mary Kittel, a Prevention Health Book. It tells me to take certain vitamins, minerals, and nutrients, which I do. And also I read a section about being too sensitive. That would be me, and all of my life I was that. It says Im in a position of emotional leadership! Hows That! Wow, makes me feel good. I never looked at it that way. It also goes on to say that I notice more subtleties and process information more deeply. And I thought that was a bad thing. I now see this as a gift and an asset. Theres nothing I enjoy more than drawing someone out of their emotional shell. To share the human experience honestly and totally. I seem to be able to do that in all cases, even the tough nuts that are hard to crack. This is a precious gift and I have suffered terribly in my life so that I could fine tune it even more. This section on sensitivity was an excerpt in the above mentioned book taken from The Highly Sensitive Person, by Elaine N. Aron, Ph.D.
In trying to keep this somewhat art related, I will say Ive been working on a bluebird watercolor painting, and its taking forever to complete. It should take 3 days at the very most. But Im dealing with this mood disorder that affects every aspect of my life. Ill keep whacking away on it and will share it when its done. Now back to my book.
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