Why do I see hope one day, when I think my life could really amount to something, then go to even lower than the lowest, the day before? Sure Im bi poler, and that doesnt help anything, but its more than that. I have moments when I really dont think I can hang on any longer. I dont see a whole lot of other people around me walking the tightrope between life and death. I dont see them hanging on by their white knuckles on the most gigantic roller coaster in the world, the coaster that never stops. I just want to give up and say fuck you, lay down and die! Ive wasted my entire life by having hope something or someone was going to work out and when everything was all said and done, I would have been better off hitting the road with the first sign of a problem. And now its over with. Theres nothing left in the bank account, in the bank or my soul. Im overdrawn and I just cant do it anymore.
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