Slipping

Its hard to stay positive. Its hard to stay happy and act as if nothings wrong. And when you go to dream, reality bites. I cant escape my circumstances at night. The truth teller emerges and shows me whats really inside. You cant escape your dreams and you cant run from your nightmares. They are there when your defenses are down in sweet retreatful sleep. There is no hiding or lying. There is no place called home.

Im Touched

It happened again. Last night an energy was stroking my hair. This was not a dream. I was awake. Within this month I have had several experiences, all different. This does not frighten me, just the opposite. I think its cool as hell! I wished I wounldnt have shoed it away. It was a reflex reaction, as when an insect is bothering you. I should have just laid there and let it continue. I wish I would have talked to it. Last night I also heard a male voice, but that was a waking dream. Even though its valid, I have to throw it out, because I dont know if it was dream or real. Im very scientifically minded. I dont just go on blind faith. It has to have some sort of proof involved or make sense to me when added to what I already believe. Ill be the first one to say "prove me wrong". Im not interested in being right. I want the truth.

Hitting Leo Up Again.

Time to hit Leo up again for inspiration for what to write about today. The next question is: What is my greatest talent? Well, its not art, although Im good at it. It would be my ability to suck it up and move on, and my ability to see the big picture, so to speak. I can make sense out of anything that happens, whether it be to me, someone else, or the world in general. It may make me appear insensitive at times or cruel. I just can take "me out of anything I experience and go to the place of understanding. Sometimes it takes me awhile to get there, as anyone of you know thats been following me this year. But I always arrive at a place of cosmic acceptance. You can think of it as, "what would God think of this"? Dont get me wrong, Im a lowly worm crawling around on this earth, trying to make sense of it all, just like everything and everybody else. But I have this ability to tap into MIND. Capitalized because it is all that exists. Theres even more beyond that. I cant make all the pieces of the puzzle fit, but Ive been working on it, and the picture is becoming clearer. I always feel wonderful when another piece fits. But sometimes the truth is hardcore for us humans to accept. I think one of the greatest lessons a soul can learn in life, is that life as we know it is impersonal. At the same time, it is all about us as individuals fitting into a working whole. I wasnt going to get this gosh darn into this question so deeply, but I cant help myself. Maybe I should stop now, or else I will go on and on.....